TdM Study: 4 of Coins

As stable as a table! When I see the 4 of Coins in the TdM, all I can think of it being reliable and secure. It’s a card of support and stability. Each coin on the card has its own position and place, they’re like strong supportive table legs. They hold the weight evenly, allowing more and more weight to be added. If you had a 3 legged table, it could easily tip despite still being fairly stable, it still doesn’t have the added balance that the 4th coin brings.

Looking at this card in the Jean Noblet, I spy a little crest or emblem in the center of the card – a shield. I like to think of this image as the core strength in this card. This card feels like the foundation in the Tower card, it holds the weight and remains in its place when the Tower falls apart and crumbles. With a strong and stable foundation, we can easily rebuild over and over again, much like an actual house. I’ve often heard people say “there’s a crack in the foundation, so we’ll need to start over from scratch”… or… “the foundation is in good shape, this will make things much easier to build on”… it’s all about that “base”.

Keyword: Stability

The Hermit + The Devil

The Devil (Card 15) in Tarot – The Open Reading by Yoav Ben-Dov

The one thing that Tarot de Marseille has taught me so far is to slow down. So much can be seen in such simple images, I have been spoiled by the RWS with the vivid imagery. When I slow down and really soak in every aspect of the card, the card reveals more and more. This is also true for any deck, not just TdM and RWS – slow down and really soak in the symbolism.

Yesterday, while reading The Open Reading by Yoav Ben-Dov, I got caught up in the Devil card imagery on the page. Ben-Dov has been great at pointing out little things in the Conver deck and he stats often that everything is a message, nothing is by accident. He has talked about the littlest of things in the cards, like why part of the leg in the Magician card was left uncolored, he believes it wasn’t an accident. He didn’t mention two things on the Devil card that I saw though, perhaps someone else in another book has… or on a blog, this may have been talked about a million times for all I know. Someone did share a fantastic link with me called the The Mysteries of the Tarot de Marseille… I will be diving into this blog big time!

Here are some of my thoughts…

In the Devil card shown in the CBD Tarot (which was a reproduction of the Conver deck), the Devil has 9 toes. Going along with Ben-Dov’s quote “everything is a sign” I took this as just that, a hidden message.

Le Pape (The Pope) + L’ Hermite (The Hermit) + Le Diable (The Devil) from the CBD Tarot

I associated the 9 toes to Card 9 – The Hermit. When thinking about what the Hermit and the Devil had in common, I was drawn to the robe of the Hermit. The Devil has no robe, he bares it all with nothing left for the imagination. The Hermit on the other hand, is fully cloaked like he’s trying to hide something (and yes, the Hermit is often associated to the clothing of a Monk). Then it clicked, what if the Hermit was the Devil… he uses his robe to hide who he truly is.

Going along with this theory… in the Hermit card, he is seen holding up a lamp and walks with a cane or walking stick… this could be seen in the Devil card as the torch the Devil is holding, hidden in plain sight in the Hermit card. The Hermit could then be using his lamp to help his search for someone or something to fuel his hidden desires – like the imps in the Devil card. 

Then I was thinking about the imp’s on the Devil card and noticed one had three dots on the chest, the other did not. It was brought to my attention that it could be an association with Free Masons, which is interesting! Going along with my own theory, what if the 3 dots were associated to the Empress (Card 3) and the other imp would then be the Emperor (Card 4).

Jumping to another card (I was all over the place in the Major’s last night)…there are two heads in the Pope card (The Hierophant) that are like two children, what if they were also the Empress and Emperor… being warned by the Pope about the Devil. Then later on, falling trap to the Hermit’s lure and in turn revealing his true side by lifting the robe, ta-da! The Devil!

The Pope in the Pope card is looking in the direction of the Hermit and the Devil – and the Hermit’s looking right back at him as if his eyes are saying “shhhh”! Maybe the Pope is giving the Empress and Emperor a “heads up” about him and telling them to beware, or perhaps he is sending them in that direction. Who knows?! Perhaps the Major Arcana is about their journey and not the Fool’s journey. Maybe the Fool started off solo, with no gender and was transformed by the Magician and “split in two” by the Popess (High Priestess). Or… maybe I’ve had way too much coffee lately and need to lay off a bit lol!!

Anyways, I was hesitant on sharing this on the blog… I’m always nervous with sharing any of my personal thoughts when it comes to tarot. I always fear what most fear “judgement” as being perceived as either stupid or plain crazy LOL!

Finding peace with the Tower

[ Decks: Portland Tarot – Pagan Otherworlds – Spirit Speak – Smith Waite Centennial Edition in tin ]
The Tower, a card that most see as “doom and gloom” is a card I often see it as a sign of peace. The Tower card to me is a big “reset” button, it’s a quick and sudden clearing that will be over before you know it.  No one loves unplanned surprises (not the happy kind), they can be uncomfortable and not having a plan in place when something triggers so hard can be brutal to our delicate moods and daily lives.

I see the Tower as a chance to start again, a fresh clean slate. If something isn’t working out do you really want to keep dragging it along in hopes it will change… when you really know it won’t. Here comes to Tower to do the dirty work for you! Let things crumble, let things fall apart, let the deed go on and destroy what you worked so hard for. Ok, that does sound pretty harsh, it’s going to suck, no lie. We will feel powerless, but you know what? That’s ok! The Tower sometimes will do things that we subconsciously wish we could do ourselves, but sometimes we just aren’t that brave. Other times, it can pop up when we need it to but just don’t know it.

The one thing you can do when the Tower comes to town is to pack your bags and hold on tight to the ground beneath you… if you have a stable foundation when the Tower hits, you can easily build back up and start again. The key is to not lose your shit over all that has happened, you still have the ground beneath your feet and your head on your shoulders. This train wreck gives you a chance to try a new plan or go down a new path, it’s all about a big shiny red “reset” button that lands in your lap. It’s like when you spill coffee on your journal and it destroys the pages. You can always buy another journal to replace it with, it may not be the same as before and you may have lost a lot of important information, but you can start over and the world will still go on, I promise.

When shit hits the fan, it just means a new direction is needed in order to reach them. If you’re not willing to start again, then it’s pretty clear that what you had before wasn’t that important after all. The Tower helps you see what is truly important in your life and all the other stuff is just that, stuff. So next time you see the Tower in a reading, smile and hold on tight. Enjoy the ride and keep an eye on the bright side of things. It’s about a sudden and much needed release.

LEPUS ● Cosmos Tarot & Oracle

I’m going through all 100 cards in the Cosmos Tarot & Oracle deck, one by one with my own interpretation based on my intuition and notes from the deck creators in the book. I’ve had this deck for quite a while and have yet to dive in, so I’m using this as a way to get to know the deck. From what I have learned and noticed is that it really has it’s own system, not quite like the Rider-Waite or other systems I have found. This deck is a collaboration of 100 different artists through Light Grey Art Lab, it features constellations, planetary, and all things surrounding the universe.

LEPUS (2 of Air) ● Cosmos Tarot & Oracle

Keywords: End of Naivety

Nothing is just as it seems, we have all fallen into the traps of hopeful fantasy. This card reminds me of children when they soon learn that there is no Santa Claus or that the Easter bunny is not real, tales that our parents tell us when we are very young. We fall into the lore and love of the stories, our imaginations are ripe and on fire. We are invisible and wear capes that protect us. We have no reason to believe otherwise because in our eyes, no one lies and everything is very black and white. It’s about coming to terms that what was is not necessarily true and it’s time to embrace it. It is the transition of growing up and being an adult to face reality.

The rabbit in this card is Lepus, from the story of Orion. Rabbits are known for their cunning speed, swiftness, and naivety. They don’t think anything can catch them, perhaps they think they are invisible just like children in superhero capes. This often ends bad for rabbits, they get cornered and out numbered in hunting and by prey. This card urges us to be quick on our feet but don’t fall into traps and be caught off guard. Be aware of your surrounding and don’t believe everything you see.


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Lupus ● Cosmos Tarot & Oracle

I’m going through all 100 cards in the Cosmos Tarot & Oracle deck, one by one with my own interpretation based on my intuition and notes from the deck creators in the book. I’ve had this deck for quite a while and have yet to dive in, so I’m using this as a way to get to know the deck. From what I have learned and noticed is that it really has it’s own system, not quite like the Rider-Waite or other systems I have found. This deck is a collaboration of 100 different artists through Light Grey Art Lab, it features constellations, planetary, and all things surrounding the universe.

LUPUS (9 of Air) ● Cosmos Tarot & Oracle

Keywords: Secret Dealings – Rumors – Provocation

We all encounter trolls online, people in our lives that test us or challenge us, and those who just simply want to prove us wrong even when we are right. These people can make a big hiccup in our day that will drag on into the week and sometimes longer! Ignoring these encounters are often the best choice but sometimes we just need to confront them and call them out. Be the bigger person and put any rumors to rest, clear the air, and move on.

I’m drawn to the hand of the wolf in this card. It is a moment caught in transition, where a human is transformed into a wolf, almost like they are showing their true colors. If a person is just out for a thrill and wants to stir the pot for their own entertainment, it will be shown and they will be exposed.


I’m going through the Cosmos Tarot & Oracle deck, find the other cards I talk about here! Got this deck and want to follow along? Join in on the comments, I want to hear what you think of each card!

Pegasus ● Cosmos Tarot & Oracle

I’m going through all 100 cards in the Cosmos Tarot & Oracle deck, one by one with my own interpretation based on my intuition and notes from the deck creators in the book. I’ve had this deck for quite a while and have yet to dive in, so I’m using this as a way to get to know the deck. From what I have learned and noticed is that it really has it’s own system, not quite like the Rider-Waite or other systems I have found. This deck is a collaboration of 100 different artists through Light Grey Art Lab, it features constellations, planetary, and all things surrounding the universe.

PEGASUS (Wheel of Fortune) ● Cosmos Tarot & Oracle

Keywords: From Humble Beginnings to True Potential

Sometimes we are gifted with gratitude in the form of teaching, mentoring, and even just simple assistance. This is a card of giving back, extending your gratitude to another. If you have received some awesome free service, give back to someone else in return. This is much like “pay-it-forward” to me when I interpret this card. It doesn’t have to be in the form of money though, it can be in gestures and helping others. It reminds me of being taught something by someone for free and down the road I do the same for someone else who could use this help. This card is full of accepting the gratitude of others, giving gratitude, and passing it down.


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Sagitta + Indus ● Cosmos Tarot & Oracle

I’m going through all 100 cards in the Cosmos Tarot & Oracle deck, one by one with my own interpretation based on my intuition and notes from the deck creators in the book. I’ve had this deck for quite a while and have yet to dive in, so I’m using this as a way to get to know the deck. From what I have learned and noticed is that it really has it’s own system, not quite like the Rider-Waite or other systems I have found. This deck is a collaboration of 100 different artists through Light Grey Art Lab, it features constellations, planetary, and all things surrounding the universe.

SAGITTA + INDUS (6 of Fire) ● Cosmos Tarot & Oracle

Keywords: Damage Taken to Defend Another

Be the warrior, be that person who takes a stand and defends not only those you love but what you love. This card is about taking action to protect and shield what you hold as sacred. This can also be standing up for yourself in a conversation when you feel attacked verbally. We come into contact with others who push their beliefs and opinions on us way too often – standing in line at the store, at work in the office, or even just over the phone. This is your message to take a stand and defend yourself. The arrows in this card are straight and sharp, so should your conduct, don’t bend your actions or soften your tact. This doesn’t mean you should  start throwing sharp objects!! It also doesn’t mean to be hateful, it’s aimed at taking a stand towards a bully or someone/something that pushes themselves into your life negatively or is hurtful unwanted behavior. I can think of a few situations where I didn’t hold my ground and fight back, so I know this card also urges us to be courageous and use inner strength.

The person depicted in this card seems to be a Native American holding a flag and tomahawk as they face the arrows being shot at them. They have several arrows piercing their arm, yet they are still standing strong and facing those attacking. We may face getting injured or emotionally hurt while taking a stand at what threatens us, but this is a small sacrifice to take. You can’t always go into an argument and not expect to get verbally bruised. As silly as this is, this children’s rhyme comes to mind when looking at this card:

Sticks and stones may break my bones

but names will never hurt me.

A note on the cosmos associated with this card, Sagitta and Indus. Sagitta is the constellation of the arrow while Indus is normally associated as a proud man with arrows in both hands, depicted usually as a Native American. Both constellations are far away from each other but are related in symbolism here. I think they collaborate well in this card and have a powerful message.


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Cygnus ● Cosmos Tarot & Oracle

I’m going through all 100 cards in the Cosmos Tarot & Oracle deck, one by one with my own interpretation based on my intuition and notes from the deck creators in the book. I’ve had this deck for quite a while and have yet to dive in, so I’m using this as a way to get to know the deck. From what I have learned and noticed is that it really has it’s own system, not quite like the Rider-Waite or other systems I have found. This deck is a collaboration of 100 different artists through Light Grey Art Lab, it features constellations, planetary, and all things surrounding the universe.

Cygnus

CYGNUS (5 of Fire) ● Cosmos Tarot & Oracle

Keywords: Keeping Up Appearances – Tactical Finesse

It can be difficult to keep it together and look at ease, yet also try to put your foot down and lay down the rules. I think some of us do this well, while others crumble under the pressure. This card tells me to breath, to take a moment to collect myself before turning into the Tower and losing my shit. Being able to keep your cool in rocky situations is a challenge in itself but one that offers a lot of respect.

I’m really drawn to the fierceness of the swan. Normally you see a swan as graceful and delicate while it swims softly through the water, but this swan is out for blood. I feel it is protecting something, it’s like it was finally pushed over the edge… but the swan is being a bad ass! It is showing control and dominance, in yet a graceful tact. This is a swan you don’t want to mess with and would like on your side. I feel like it would take a lot for the swan to be pushed to this state so it must be over something dear to them, perhaps it’s cygnets (babies). 

This card is associated with the Cygnus constellation, which is known as the swan constellation. In Latin, Cygnus means “the swan”. This constellation is associated with the Greek mythology of Zeus and Leda, read more on this constellation here.


I’m going through the Cosmos Tarot & Oracle deck, find the other cards I talk about here! Got this deck and want to follow along? Join in on the comments, I want to hear what you think of each card!

100 Cards of Cosmos

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Back in June I got my hands on the Cosmos Tarot & Oracle deck… for the second time after letting go my first copy, which I instantly regretted. I vowed that I would do a deep study with this deck… but ended up getting distracted (probably by another deck arrival) and never started up the study. This deck has been sitting comfortably on my shelf with my many other decks. I was recently inspired by Anna from Lady Lionheart Tarot who is doing a “#100DaysofCosmos” on her Instagram – as well as inspiration from Carrie Mallon and her The Wild Unknown card posts over on her blog (they are excellent)! I’ve been wanting to dive into this deck for months and I think this will be a fun way of doing it!

So, I’m planning on doing a daily draw with this deck on my Instagram and then talk about a few cards each week on the blog (will most likely double up on days or post a few days each week). I don’t want to cram all the cards in but I also don’t want these posts to drag out too long since I tend to lose interest quite easily and there are 100 cards total.

My goal with each blog post is to note the keywords associated with the card given from the book (they are also listed on all the cards), as well as my personal interpretation of each card using my intuition and the info given in the book. I will also try to note on the planetary or constellation associated with each card.

I started a page on the blog where I will list all the cards to this deck so you can find them quick and go right to the post I do. Since I’m going card by card, I will add the link to each card as I go. I’m pulling them at random so they won’t be in order.

I’m going to try to not put a lot of pressure on myself for these posts, but to make them more fun and relaxed. If I miss a week or two, no worries! If you have this deck and want to follow along, please do! Feel free to post your interpretations in the comments, I would love to hear from you guys!

Exploring the Star

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Decks: Spirit Speak – Alchemical Tarot – Tarot Del Fuego – Bohemian Gothic – Centennial RWS – Aquarian Tarot – Collective Tarot

The Star card has never been one of my favorites, at least up until recently. Most interpret this card with keywords like hope – guidance – wishing – beacon of light. These keywords never really resonated with me, I always felt there was a much deeper meaning to this card than just hopeful wishing. The Star always felt very “in the spotlight” and a good kind of strange, it had a different feeling than what I kept reading.

I touched base on my personal connection to this card in the post here (the Star came up for the weeks theme). When I read The Creative Tarot by Jessa Crispin, she hit the nail on the head for me with her interpretation of the Star. Maybe I’m a little slow at catching on to this interpretation but it resonated deeply with me and I had a personal connection now to go with this card.

For ages and ages, I always felt like the odd duck, one always tagging along, trying to fit in. This card is me, this is a card that I need to take into myself and work harder on. Focus on bringing out my authentic self and focusing on who I am as a person, a mother, a wife, and an artist. This is not an easy task, it seems we are always going with the flow of things, following the trends, and sticking to what is “normal”. The past few months have left me feeling more and more authentic as a reader and as a person. I’m learning that it’s ok to let my curtain down and raise my freak flag for all to see. It’s exhausting to try and hide, and as I get older… I don’t want to hide anymore. It’s no fun! Plus, it’s hard to find your tribe if your hiding in a cave… Jessa Crispin said it best – “When you start working in alignment with your own weirdo desires, other weirdos – the best kinds of weirdos- tend to find you”.

The Star is about being unique and standing out in the crowd. It encompasses all that is strange and all that is beautiful in the world. When I see this card in a reading, especially in a present position, this tells me that I am exactly where I need to be right now in this moment. To enjoy every aspect of who I am. If I see this card in the past position, it tells me that I have lost the connection somewhere between then and now. It’s time to start finding my “star” again. Lastly, if I see this in a “future” position, it tells me that I am getting closer… to keep searching and keeping moving forward on my soul search to find my authenticity. While yes, it does still have that traditional meaning of hope and renewal, so it really depends on the reading I’m doing and where this card falls.

What does the Star card mean to you?


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